Relationships

I was thinking about this as I walked home today from class. I only had one so far, from 9-10, my mechatronics class. He keeps saying the same things over and over (maybe he's not expecting many people to come to class) but he does take the opportunity to lecture in very fancy suits.

After class, I thought i recognized one of my group mates and called to him, but it turned out not to be him, so I felt hella dumbbbb... but then I scheduled a meeting for later in the day. I'm glad I'm starting to have stuff to do. I was getting kinda bored before, doing stats hw sets and stuff.

But then after that, I was walking home and I thought about how people change. Don't we all change? I think I've changed a lot since 4 years back. And how do we change? By learning things: all sorts of things! Like how to cook meals - the knowledge of which might cause you to stay home and cook more. Maybe learning judo would make you more active than you used to be. Or even being in a long relationship... it teaches you how to love someone because how you spend time together is not all okay. It's not about the general things a couple does with each other - it's about the specific things that make the relationship special and fun. I don't know about anyone else, but I think it takes a long time to learn how to take it all in - the partner has to communicate all the time. Sometimes the communication goes wrong, and the relationship goes bumpy... but once you've learned how to love her...

Putting all that aside! What I'm saying is that it changes you! All the time spent to get just a little better at relationships creates a lot of bad memories. In the end, I can't imagine meeting anyone new knowing all I know now without thanking Carolyn first.